me when susan thomas talks at me in class
dir by Wim Wenders
"It’s important to forgive."
"Who do you have the hardest time forgiving?"
i’m reading this memoir right now called trauma queen. in it, the speaker refers that the ptsd she experienced as a child as a ghost trying to kill her, and i’ve never read anything more accurate in my life.
no lie this is my new favorite show (sorry i’m late) i think it’s the most important show about a family since the fuckin cosby show.
sometimes i wish i still had it in me to be cruel. i never really did, but i used to be good at mean. i can’t be mean anymore, and there are some people who i think need an awakening to their own cruel behavior. i have to remember it is not my job to wake them up. but i hope hope hope that they realize how hurtful their own behavior is and apologize to the right people. i hope they let go of their need to control others.
i will meditate on your growth. i hope you change.